sometimes i feel like running away

im sorry that i had to blog here, cause its a place where she'll never find this post.
i just feel like turning my back and running away from here, im causing her so much pain and agony. so much so that she is so stressed now and its an important year for her. i dont wanna be the cause of anything bad. you guys should know what i mean. dont want to be the cause of her demise. tears are seriously stinging my eyes as i type this i have no idea why, but im just gonna contain it. someone please tell me what i should do. all i want is a long lasting relationship with her. to the extent of even getting married with her. i know its sounds stupid and childish but im serious. but it wont happen. its just wishful thinking on my side. God has always picked on me

hello!

well! ahahahah went town today after school! woo i embarrassed myself twice! well first was for JOEY! freaking dog! lol make me take some psycho paths number for him! wooo scary luh she was like laughing herself! all alone?!??!! wth man! lol then next was for kenrick! lol we followed the girl from like far east all the way to like mmmmm where was that mmm borders like 1/2 hour of following la oh my shit and couldt get! i told you! i can never take numbers! im cant take the pressure! lol ! welll just came back from a jog with elliot and ian! lol been a long time man! damn tired! wooo i have livejournal now! thanks to CLARA ((:! =D AND WHO IS Sseoowei?

CHEEKYS

well hello! mmm mmm last night was a blast! heh! went cheekys with the bros! Julia and the Ij gang! =D well i cant really remember much! but well had a blast! wooo here is what i can recall! mmmm Julia asking me to stop drinking. mmmm some chick massaging my head! lol mmm mmm mmm well Julia said i tried to beat up this unknown guy which idont remember at all and i tried crossing the road blindly! DID I?>!?!!?! well oh and someone told me i was like i wanna go paya lebar to find alexandra! wth! mmm i dont remember saying that either! well sigh! heh i dont stand a chance! time to give up i guess! WTH I DONT EVEN REMEMBER WHO SENT ME HOME!!!!! and gary you are the cause to my hangover! ASS! i had 2 tequila pops, 3 madras, 2 kyidds, 2 long islands, 1 GRAVEYARD(TERROR) didt drink the whole thing. err and a few more shots here and there and coke with whisky all those. Oh that explains it!

HOOHOHO!

well just another boring day at school. well thanks for the presents guys! appreciate it! (: and well today is the actual day, but ahhaha you know the anticipation of she wishing me grew so much when the clock striked 12 but well she didt. well i hope i dont see her there tmr with eka or whichever dude. man! must drink till i drop later yo! anyways thanks for everything guys! will try and get the videos up at the party! FREAKING BRUISES! cherrios! =D

Hello

well hello. mmmm played soccer after school. fun. from like 12 to 3. before we like took a break well headed to the convention centre after taking a break and i got to see the donut girl =D hohohoo! wth man im going crazy. well hahah precy tapped me on the back. shocking! well mm mmm mm mm mmmmm played soccer again around 4 plus till like 6 damn tired. almost got into a fight, and wow hell loads of indians playing today. shewwwww!=D vids up!

BEN STRIEKS BACK! argh i cant post the vids next time! relax! =D busy disturbing some poor soul on the bus!

aye

well hello! mmm its been a few days since i last talked to alex. isnt going very well for me. freaking argh. i dont even see her online. pfft. well mmm went to plush last night. holy cows man mmm danced yadayada. then had some problems. well my friend knocked into someone then they all started making hell lot of a noise. went out to settle it. well we were outside with like 30 of our friends. so those dudes came out with 6 then 9 then 10 and so on. wow hell load of dudes. well started shouting here and there. thought a fight was brewing, myrans hands were itchy already. in the end got settled cause all from the same ss. what a joke. well thanks to ex- uh hmm dennis. =D what a joke. well yeah! thanks aster for cutting queue for us wahhaha. (: sexy ladeh. went school freaking tired since monday, school is such a drag! rarr!!

well! hahaahaaa i think im finally getting over her i hope. Drinking really solves problems, i was so high that i called her, then she like texted back. so we talked. and well the truth is out. to her im nothing more than a line in her book. so well. i'll just have to get over it. heh! well last night had a hell of a time. snuck out. went drinkin with friends! coolio! shared a bottle of vodka with ken finished like 3/4. holy cows man. i was really damn high. maybe cos i was sad, maybe not. well we were around orchard towers! sooo guess what! we went in and started playing a fool hahah yucks! when i wanted to go to the next floor 4 of em were like giving the lip sounds! ARGH YUCKS! well frannies lolli got taken away by one of them! started licking it in front of him. then touched darryl! WTH! DARRYL WAS LIKE: GOOO AWAY!! __ =D fierce!heh i guess nat is right! there are many girls out there but hopefully i can find one that will mean as much or more than alex to me! ahahha some REAL GIRLS WERE GIVING US THE EYES! =D hohoho.well after that took a cab home to get my phone! forgot to take it with me. heh then puked alot! AND I MEAN ALOT! before i could walk a bit better! hahah but it was fun! went out with $50 came back with $15 )): thats all! (: