END OF ALL HOPE

sometimes i feel like running away

2008-01-02T22:18:00.001+08:00

im sorry that i had to blog here, cause its a place where she'll never find this post.
i just feel like turning my back and running away from here, im causing her so much pain and agony. so much so that she is so stressed now and its an important year for her. i dont wanna be the cause of anything bad. you guys should know what i mean. dont want to be the cause of her demise. tears are seriously stinging my eyes as i type this i have no idea why, but im just gonna contain it. someone please tell me what i should do. all i want is a long lasting relationship with her. to the extent of even getting married with her. i know its sounds stupid and childish but im serious. but it wont happen. its just wishful thinking on my side. God has always picked on me

hello!

2007-12-08T00:14:00.000+08:00

well! ahahahah went town today after school! woo i embarrassed myself twice! well first was for JOEY! freaking dog! lol make me take some psycho paths number for him! wooo scary luh she was like laughing herself! all alone?!??!! wth man! lol then next was for kenrick! lol we followed the girl from like far east all the way to like mmmmm where was that mmm borders like 1/2 hour of following la oh my shit and couldt get! i told you! i can never take numbers! im cant take the pressure! lol ! welll just came back from a jog with elliot and ian! lol been a long time man! damn tired! wooo i have livejournal now! thanks to CLARA ((:! =D AND WHO IS Sseoowei?

CHEEKYS

2007-12-05T16:51:00.000+08:00

well hello! mmm mmm last night was a blast! heh! went cheekys with the bros! Julia and the Ij gang! =D well i cant really remember much! but well had a blast! wooo here is what i can recall! mmmm Julia asking me to stop drinking. mmmm some chick massaging my head! lol mmm mmm mmm well Julia said i tried to beat up this unknown guy which idont remember at all and i tried crossing the road blindly! DID I?>!?!!?! well oh and someone told me i was like i wanna go paya lebar to find alexandra! wth! mmm i dont remember saying that either! well sigh! heh i dont stand a chance! time to give up i guess! WTH I DONT EVEN REMEMBER WHO SENT ME HOME!!!!! and gary you are the cause to my hangover! ASS! i had 2 tequila pops, 3 madras, 2 kyidds, 2 long islands, 1 GRAVEYARD(TERROR) didt drink the whole thing. err and a few more shots here and there and coke with whisky all those. Oh that explains it!

HOOHOHO!

2007-12-04T00:38:00.000+08:00

well just another boring day at school. well thanks for the presents guys! appreciate it! (: and well today is the actual day, but ahhaha you know the anticipation of she wishing me grew so much when the clock striked 12 but well she didt. well i hope i dont see her there tmr with eka or whichever dude. man! must drink till i drop later yo! anyways thanks for everything guys! will try and get the videos up at the party! FREAKING BRUISES! cherrios! =D

Hello

2007-11-29T21:57:00.000+08:00

well hello. mmmm played soccer after school. fun. from like 12 to 3. before we like took a break well headed to the convention centre after taking a break and i got to see the donut girl =D hohohoo! wth man im going crazy. well hahah precy tapped me on the back. shocking! well mm mmm mm mm mmmmm played soccer again around 4 plus till like 6 damn tired. almost got into a fight, and wow hell loads of indians playing today. shewwwww!=D vids up!

BEN STRIEKS BACK! argh i cant post the vids next time! relax! =D busy disturbing some poor soul on the bus!

aye

2007-11-28T18:48:00.000+08:00

well hello! mmm its been a few days since i last talked to alex. isnt going very well for me. freaking argh. i dont even see her online. pfft. well mmm went to plush last night. holy cows man mmm danced yadayada. then had some problems. well my friend knocked into someone then they all started making hell lot of a noise. went out to settle it. well we were outside with like 30 of our friends. so those dudes came out with 6 then 9 then 10 and so on. wow hell load of dudes. well started shouting here and there. thought a fight was brewing, myrans hands were itchy already. in the end got settled cause all from the same ss. what a joke. well thanks to ex- uh hmm dennis. =D what a joke. well yeah! thanks aster for cutting queue for us wahhaha. (: sexy ladeh. went school freaking tired since monday, school is such a drag! rarr!!

2007-11-26T20:21:00.000+08:00

well! hahaahaaa i think im finally getting over her i hope. Drinking really solves problems, i was so high that i called her, then she like texted back. so we talked. and well the truth is out. to her im nothing more than a line in her book. so well. i'll just have to get over it. heh! well last night had a hell of a time. snuck out. went drinkin with friends! coolio! shared a bottle of vodka with ken finished like 3/4. holy cows man. i was really damn high. maybe cos i was sad, maybe not. well we were around orchard towers! sooo guess what! we went in and started playing a fool hahah yucks! when i wanted to go to the next floor 4 of em were like giving the lip sounds! ARGH YUCKS! well frannies lolli got taken away by one of them! started licking it in front of him. then touched darryl! WTH! DARRYL WAS LIKE: GOOO AWAY!! __ =D fierce!heh i guess nat is right! there are many girls out there but hopefully i can find one that will mean as much or more than alex to me! ahahha some REAL GIRLS WERE GIVING US THE EYES! =D hohoho.well after that took a cab home to get my phone! forgot to take it with me. heh then puked alot! AND I MEAN ALOT! before i could walk a bit better! hahah but it was fun! went out with $50 came back with $15 )): thats all! (:

well well

2007-11-25T21:43:00.001+08:00

I figured that being like this aint the way. so im deciding not to quit fagging, i actually stopped for quite awhile thanks to her. well since things have gone this way i cant. well no more emo posts sucks big time. life totally sucks anyways. well heres the happier things that happen the past few days that i didt put in.

well had shots and nuts! pretty nice, was quite high after that. all around campus couldt stop laughing!

well after that had a ride to cs and kais' basketball tourney woo! fun! watch this vid! to think we shouted at a bunch of scouts and had to stop right at the next one! woo!

KEN AND CS BUSY SHOUTING AT STUPID BUS WAITERS!

boo

2007-11-23T22:54:00.000+08:00

well today was yet another horrible day, didt go class, no mood for school anymore. sigh. well went to play soccer instead. really no mood to do anything. sigh well my temper is getting from bad to worse. i dont know why. sigh i keep thinking of her im going crazy. aye. Almost got in to a fight with another group well, good thing they didt say they had a problem, would have freaking whacked them. really no mood for games anymore. im not as fun as i used to be. say bye to the joker jared. it fdoesnt work. unless you are from a boys school. pfft. shitheads stuck up. not all. but mostly. the once i know are the nice ones. oh well. i guess eka is nice too

hey ho yo

2007-11-22T21:55:00.001+08:00

well, today had a chat session with my cousin nat. well she told me a lot of things that made sense. well i guess maybe she just doesnt like mixed school boys or dumb people like me. so well, i will carry on trying to forget her. which is utterly impossible i can guarantee. nothing can ever cahnge how much i love her, you know how much it pains me to see the photos she has with eka, i know im crazy but i have been checking out his profile, so close and she said it was a nono, *joke* well since she prefers AcsI dudes, rich, hot whatever you name they have it. so what can i do right. well i got nothing to say. My usual image i had of her is shattered, now its bad. well wooo, maybe she also thinks im some gangster just because i get angry fast.well im not i dont even get into fights often unless i really have to. well who cares acsi to her is everything, she dont give shit about aes boy. im just a toy. fcuk well this few nights mmm 2 to be exact i cant sleep i keep tossing and turning keep thinking about her. wth man! i hate this feeling the thought of her being around you know whos! well who am i to care for her right. she is enjoying herself, so what can i do.

THANKS Nat
Julia
AND ALL ELSE! (:

i know im being played around in the mind, well im sorry i dont mind. 7 years dont matter a thing. just like tim said LOL joker bitches they come they go.. but she isnt. she is one in a million i tell ya ): well she only likes all boys school ones so all the best to them.

OH yeah, thanks alexandra for the point , i get it now, hmmm since you always stop replying half way. well she told me eka was a bigg nono right, hmmm but she replies him. on the other hand she doesnt reply me which means im a even bigger nono. wow! thanks.

I JUST REALISED HOW BIG A LOSER I AM!

Thanks guys. She locked my heart and threw the key away

2007-11-20T19:52:00.000+08:00

well, this 2 days of school everywhere most of the places i go, everyone is like Hey jared whats wrong? lol i didt know they could tell that somethings wrong. well anyways thanks for the concern guys but i cant help it. i cant control myself anymore. like totally lost myself. sigh well havent talked to her like for one day, you know the temptation of sending a txt to her. even if i do all i get is cold txts back, i mean now isnt as bad as last time but in the end she'll cut off like after 5 txts and say that she is busy or something. well cant be helped if she doesnt care. well i learnt a very valuable lesson, dont trust what others say and also never ever fall in love with someone. just wait for them to tell you they love you first, the pain is so fking shit. i totally screwed myself just now when i asked her out for a movie and suddenly said its alright. well i kinda got a lil pissed cos she was like no prob after i asked her out cos i said thanks. yeah maybe its just self pity or something or maybe shes doing me a favour or something i dont know. well im gonna box up myself till i forget. well thats gonna be a long time. i like totally am head over heels for her. no idea why. im just being freaking PARANOID JEALOUS YA DA YA DA cos of that ffreakhead eka.. sigh i dont know. love totally sucks eggs. well she was missing the whole afternoon cycling with god knows who. well its not for me to say anything. woo ahh hope someone brings alcohol to school tmr. sigh freaking sucked on my 7 years, where did i go wrong

my love for her will never fade. well she doesnt give a shit

how can you expect me just to close my eyes

2007-11-19T14:18:00.001+08:00

well just as i thought things were looking up. i went back to look at the photos well its totally different. she was enjoying it i could see. well. well. well. well. i got nothing to say. maybe im just a shiat dumb shat. well forgetting someone you have liked for so long is too darn difficult. sorry to everyone else that i have given a false impression,. im was trying to forget her. well i cant.

our clique is going down

2007-11-02T22:56:00.000+08:00

Well we are all getting shit one by one yo. first was elliot! sigh lost his phone ya da ya da, that girl. then it was choonseng his ciggs were crushed by police. then me fined $500 and may get a case, dont think i will and that girl too sigh. then now ALVIN holy shit man he just lost his wallet costs like $140 and had 70 bucks inside plus all his cards! what the hell man ): anyways i hope no one else gets it. sigh why us man. well i hope nothing goes wrong anymore.

pfft. well today skipped the whole day. went to play soccer , headed to canteen saw lance, josh and sheida =D i still dont know how to spell it! die! andddddd SARAH XD fierce! woo they signed up for gl camp! sweeet! ((: man oh man. take a look at the photo this afternoon when we went beauty world for lunch ken took some drug and foamed up =D WELL IF YOU DIDT KNOW GO WATCH THE VIDS AT THE BOTTOM IF YOU ARE BORED cIAOS!

suck eggs

2007-11-01T02:26:00.000+08:00

man my dad hid the keys out. argh! im stuck at home forever! sigh! life sucks man! well i think cupcake has someone else already ): well sigh. everything isnt going well now.

well then

2007-10-30T21:10:00.000+08:00

hahahahah helllllo!!!

well! this early morning was the worse day of my life. im never gonna buy contra ever again! shiat man! details classified due to some viewers. THE MARDA SUCKS! lol. hmm hmm well i havent talk to ver for like 2 days. dont know man. its super diff when i talk to her. she is like silent. i can talk to others be it a guy or a girl. got lotsa shit to say. maybe she doesnt wanna talk to me. heh. sigh whatever,, woooo wooo woooo! life is screwed up. hmm mhm mhmm hmm mhmmm mhmm mhmmmm! ciaos!

sigh

2007-10-30T03:26:00.000+08:00

man this is the worse year i have ever had. keep doing the wrong things, i think im falling for the wrong person. getting false hope i guess. and i just got a case. sigh fucked up, my life is screwing up bit by bit. soon i think i'll be dead. that'll be great though. sigh ciaos

stupid me

2007-10-28T08:22:00.000+08:00

argh, im damn dumb luh i shouldt have put the money back into her wallet, had to go back and borrow cash! ARGH SO embarrasing ): she didt even reply my msg die die): i doubt she can even remember anything so hai! nvm ciaos church and soccer time

LECTURERS! wth man!

2007-10-26T23:12:00.001+08:00

woooo today! another boring day. mmm mmm mmmm alright for math class was like wth man! the teacher locked us in! and one of ma lecture mates was like wanting to get out but the teachers was like no way am i opening the door! then i asked him can i go to the loo! he was like is it neccesary. then i was like nature calls not neccesary.? your mother die dont you need to go to the funeral! LOL wooo sucker! mmm mm mm then went to play soccer! wont every match! wahhahah WOOOOO oHOOOOO! aite thats all! (: oh oh saw precy in sch! lol mmm mm mmm mm yeap yeap! lunch tmr with julia yo!

look what alvin and cs were doing in the bus from town!

finally yo!

2007-10-25T22:26:00.000+08:00

hello! peepies! today was major slack day! not gonna talk about it. went library with STEP MODEL BENSON laid back and chilled. watched vids , listened to backmasked songs only one gave me a fuck scare! lol BEATLEJUICE lol. hmm hmmm went to play soccer after that. then went home. headed out for dinner. TONYROMAS, some photos of the food we ate!

DADS RIBS COMBO! AND MY MAIDS HALF BBQ CHICKEN (other half eaten)

BROTHERS CHICKEN THING! now you know why he is fat!

thats mine! a bit messed up after eating!

NEXT DESERT!

SKILLET COOKIE AND FEEL THE APPLE CRUMBLE!!!

sigh

2007-10-21T22:32:00.000+08:00

sometimes i really dont understand why im holding on to my fucking life. i know cos its a sin and i dont want my parents to be sad, but seriously. i feel like ending once and for all. really cant take it. why cant my parents accomodate, why cant they listen. havent i dont enough. i seriously hate my life. but then again i cant do it. parents. sigh

good day

2007-10-21T14:41:00.000+08:00

well hello! hmmm aite heres the deal, after i left yesterday headed to town to meet the rest. cant remember much about what we did in town, oh yeah met julia wow there is this girl who is damn hot heh the guy also! wow! after that we headed to dxo, yeap. hmm yeah went there got ticks for everyone then guest listed in. nmmmm well i saw vers friends mel, lol she was like give up ver, dont waste your time waiting, and saw ian too, hahhaha damn tall. hot dude sure to get any chick he wants. yeap told me almost the same stuff too. well yeah and woots made a new friend, other than the lians that kept banging on me heh. RACH lol i finally recalled your name. ((: went out around esplanade to chill with her and friend.

well hmmm after the event, waited with her to get my bag, the rest of the peeps all waiting outside. woots cant believe over 30 friends went yesterday. 17 plus plus of which i know the rest links. yea lol. hmmm yeap after that walked a long long way to get drinks for the guys and rach then went back chill took bus to my church lOL! yeah damn joke. kw cs and ken were doing stupid things in the classroom. assholes. heh well. sigh my parents still not talking to me. well too bad for me (:

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2007-10-20T14:36:00.000+08:00

hello and goodbye my friends. im leaving home, cant take my dad anymore fucked up. cant even let me stay over! wth how old am i already, fuck. well this is the last straw peeps. love life sucks, everything sucks! and ian if you want to beat me up get it over and done with, cos i'm defintely gonna retaliate, and you'll be suprise to know that i wont end up with her. so faster dude., im bored

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2007-10-19T23:57:00.000+08:00

WTH MAN, mich is ignoring me ): rar. sad ): well well today school was boring as usual. hmmm hmmm didt get to see precy though =D anyways my dads a dick! rar cant even let me stay over kw hse just for one night! come on man! its not like i'll go get a one night stand or something. wth! fark! hmmm well mmmm school sucks. and whatever

okay ciaos

DEAD AS LOG

2007-10-18T21:23:00.000+08:00

lol! woo! hmm hmm kai alvin cs and ken came over to my place last night, to 'watch' soccer but we were devising a sinister plan to get me out of the house so i can meet the rest at beauty world! =D well i got out! but made a lot of noise, its a good thing my parents didt hear. woo went there played till like morning then went straight to school.! argh my class has this psycho dude, suddenly started to come out with stupid voting shits, and all of the sudden he said who is not a virgin, and all voted me! WTH WHAT NONSENSE! RAR! stupid engineering idiots! rar all the same! nvr change! grrr, well after that went town with ken to get jeans then back to school to chill! wow saw PRECY again, SSSSSS!. lol anyways julia said i should open up and since nothing is happening and i dont know what she wants maybe i should! well soo many chicks giving eye contact but i just dont know what to do! lol

wow, saw ian today kept staring at me his friend too! lol didt know that ken told me! said that guy keep staring at you. whatt for man. if you got something to say then say it. or maybe he wants to beat me up too just like the rest he did in. lol he may be able to knock me out. but he still has to face my friends. =D so woo! aite thats all ciaos!

the revolving stops in dec. maybe on my birthday. yea so wont be that sad

2007-10-16T17:16:00.000+08:00

lol yeap. woots yeap. hmm yeap. yes yeap. well yeap. im like finished already. hahah wow damn fast finished off by this dude Christian(http://profiles.friendster.com/3347900 ) go check him out. totally crushes me to nothing. hmm well dont know why he viewed me, im no threat. well she just went out again, didt bother to ask who, either vic dan, but most prob him so well. im sure to lose. ask her out not free. ask her this not free. well what can i do now? sit down and shut up yeah i guess so.

well today yet another boring day. really no mood for sch. and hahah saw garret today canteen. classmates checkin out this girl. hot i must say. sigh. went for susu with him. then susued again and again and again. im sure to die soon. gonna enjoy it (: well thats all i guess. ciaos

hai im always doing the wrong things

2007-10-15T21:53:00.000+08:00

hmm my life totally sucks. sometimes i wish i could just run and hide from the problems that i cause. bah seems like i keep causing more and more everyday. if i could just like disappear for a day, i could ease many miseries. sigh and i really think i have noo more chance. how can i win over a super hot dude., short hair, got a car. goes out with alot. and smart and whatever rar. fuck it. lifes like that. but i aint givin up.even though i know i should.

well schools a drag and i cant be bothered to talk about it. sigh really no mood for school anymore. hai. sucks eggs. sigh sigh sigh. saw sherlyn today wow lost a lot of weight, =D nothing can beat cupcake.

my fault

2007-10-15T07:56:00.001+08:00

well okay i finally woke up after dont know how many sticks. well i guess because of what i wanted i didt think of her. but still i hate it i mean. she can txt me all of the sudden and all of the sudden dont reply. yeah i like that. and hahaha nvm about the rest. im not gonna think of it. anyways im sorry for writing all those shits. but well i dont think you'll be talking to me anymore. and i dont think im gonna txt you either, i'll try my best not to. dont want to get empty boring replies or no replies. aite thats all (: lol elliot quotes: turn you into a monster. thats what he told me. whose the he? guess?! HOPEFULLY SHE'LL TALK TO ME. SIGH

HELLO YOYO!

2007-10-14T22:25:00.000+08:00

OKAY MY MISTAKE IN THE LAST POST! SHE IS DECENT! BUT IM JUST SUPER SENSITIVE! WELL im just not gonna care! (: and i'll just concentrate on GUITAR, MY DUDES, a bit of study, SOCCER GUITAR, MY DUDES, a bit of study, SOCCER GUITAR, MY DUDES, a bit of study, SOCCER GUITAR, MY DUDES, a bit of study, SOCCER GUITAR, MY DUDES, a bit of study, SOCCER GUITAR, MY DUDES, a bit of study, SOCCER GUITAR, MY DUDES, a bit of study, SOCCER GUITAR, MY DUDES, a bit of study, SOCCER.

well well seriously
im too sensitive =D which makes my friends sensitive and affects everyone! so lets all just relax and fag! well rowena said she is gonna be my personal escort to school! wooo! ahahaha THE GUYS SHALL STARE! =D lol hmm hmm nvm ! LET THE BODIES HIT THE FLOOR! im really losing my mind over her. wth nvr happened before. i'd rather she not tell me anything! hahah too busy to meet him!!? wow 2 movies straight nice. =D oh oh yes too sensitive whatever mate

just call out my name i'll be there

2007-10-13T22:40:00.001+08:00

this is getting suckier and suckier everyday, well i asked her out like last week for a movie haahah she said she is working well she went to watch one last night, 2 movies well till damn late in the morning with! i dont know who the fuck he is. well i have no right to care. and well i think she txts me just because she is bored, well maybe christian is busy in school or guy B has soccer training so to pass time maybe i'll msg the idiot. fuck, suka suka msg me suka suka dont reply.i'd rather her dont msg me at all.even though it makes me really happy sigh wow! i mean if she is gonna be working or go out with some dude at least just say bye la wtf just dont reply nice of her.lol and i thought she was a really decent girl last time. ho ho ho. thanks alot. hahaha maybe im not even worthy to call myself a substitute in front of her. maybe just a stalker yeah a stalker. well i dont know why the fuck i like her man. im wondering now. i mean lol i got so many choices. my fucked up heart always chooses the wrong ones well. getting used to it 2nd girl now. woo well i just love her too much hopefully something will come to. sigh hmm guess im just not worthy enough to go out with her anymore im like too lousy compared to the other guys. hahah well i dont care anymore man.you can blame me for being sensitive being a fucked up jerk or whatever. (: or too demanding or clingy! hahah you are right! elliot you are right too! (:

well today spent the afternoon with the family went shopping at esprit bought a few shirts, caught ballsoffury lol funny show maggie q is frreaking hot. her ass is perfect =D lol well guys dont get that lucky in singapore. sigh. oh and balls of fury was one of the shows i wanted to watch with her. but then again with someone else! well i dont know why i dont know what she is doing. so i shall just fucking try to relax and fag my life away (: cheers dudes

cupcake (: its good that she didt find this blog elliot chill (:
i wanted to so much to bring her food, she just shoos me off all the time. well maybe the hotter guys brought her stuff already. christian. fucking starting to hate that name

i cant do it

2007-10-12T19:34:00.000+08:00

well! hmm was able to txt her(cupcake) today, for awhile to be exact before she stopped replying again! ): better than nothing though, anyways i think its gonna be quite hard to make her like me, so i've to try my best to make her think that i gave up. so when she gets together with christian or whoever she wont feel guilty at all. so many guys for her so many choices. im nothing but a line. boring day again today. sigh well some weird person added me on msn saying she is my stalker some sijia person. knew alot about me. lol but when i asked her who she is she kept saying not now not yet. damn irritating. rar! always the wrong people coming to me. not the one that i want ):

(:

2007-10-12T09:26:00.001+08:00

well well! (: for the first time! she talked to me! woo! hahahah anyways yeah just came back from beauty world! went for a early morning swim! and now im sitting here! hahah my phone was like unvibrated for days, only by guys! =D well only joy txted me and called. if only that were cupcake! hahah fat hope! okay aite! thats all! tv time! no sleep again! feels ARGH

fags and booze they'll never let you snooze

2007-10-11T22:56:00.000+08:00

hello.well today woke up went to town. aite hmmm went to buy tickets at cine. for resident evil.. well after getting the tickets, walked off with kenrick first to go grab a bite. and guess what, i saw cupcake (: sigh. my heart raced and its like the whole world stopped moving.. hahah to her its like nothing. well after that i have no idea why i felt so down.. didt have the mood to do anything. rar. went to hunt for jobs after that for the boys. well someone wrote at the religion section this. CHATOLIC! =D lol damn cute catholic?!?!?

haa the night before talked to Alexandra like after how many months yo. well seems like she has been fine. and its been a long time since ive seen her. well yeah she told me she may not be going US so wow. yeah lose something, something else may come back but well i'd very much still prefer to stay cupcake but hahahahahh she doesnt give a hoot. she doesnt even talk to me. well it would be a bloody miracle if she does. how much i yearn to send her a message or msn her but haha it'll all be in vain 3-4 short texts and no reply. how enjoyable right. anyways when im sad i always do the same things. i'll be quiet thats all. but i got my bros with me and the $11.20 friends who will always be there. lol argh im going broke on them

hmmm ALSO THE that night had to call joy and sing her to sleep. ended up telling bedtime stories to her and her younger sister. chat chat chat till like 3 am plus plus plus. i think i sounded real bad! well thats all. ARGH I CANT SEE MY OWN BLOG ITS LIKE CLASSIFIED UNDER ADULT NO IDEA WHY! SINGNET SHIT! ): anyways i have this slight chance of going back indonesia. parents say i have to go! like 100% during the break. hope its not permanant yo ):

cupcake<3

HAHAH SENTOSA IS DANGEROUS but FUN! =D

2007-10-09T23:44:00.000+08:00

Beautiful beach of sentosa! =D offers good and nice injuries! (:

Alright alright! heh! we went timah again the last night went home around 4am, headed home changed did whatever and WAS SUPPOSED TO MEET AT 11 at habourfront but due to some uh hmms they were late! ARGHGHG. anyways after we got there went to siloso if im not wrong. rarrr! lol ken was super high before that! damn funny. settled down started playing basketball and soccer with some acjc ppeeoople! wow one of the girls paint damn nice! anywayss yes THATS WHEN IT ALL STARTED , we wanted to sit and have a halftime break then! i took the ball put it on this!

i took the plunge tried to kick the ball well guess what! i missed the ball and hit the metal lamp shit!! woo! the whole thing broke as you can see, i even brought the thing home as a souvenir rar! hurts like mad! ended up with a cut and blueblacks cant walk like a normal person anymore! RAR THE BLUEBLACKS ARE KILLING ME. shits well i still swam with the wound didt wanna spoil the mood! but it hurt damn badly! argh but i was worth it.all the guys were like flashing their dicks after we swam over to the island. then we paraded in boxers got the crowd looking yo. LOL

Doesnt loook as bad here but my whole foot is like all swollen! =D wahahaha cool stuff! first time i had so many photos! well went to wash it afterwards like an idiot is was an outdoor sink!

okay okay! well after that we played baseball with a wooden plank and tennis ball! all found there! wahahah lucky days yo! =D anyways. after that went to have dinner than headed to the twin towers yo! =D played catching then headed to the beaach again!ended up playing frizzzzyby! =D then a bunch of girls joined in! lol all of the boys with like wow so sexy =D ARSE lol(: anyways after that washed up! headed to vivo. left first with roger and alvin, crossed to road to grab a cab taxi stand was tooooo long yo! couldt wait. guess what waited and waited couldt get shit. so well i saw this cab driver who had a flat tire went to help and he agreeed to send us! WOO HURRAY TO NO MORE WAITING . look at me hard at work! lol to go home! woo the rest helped too! alvin took tires. roger and i busy screwin the car! LOL

after that WAS HOME SWEEEET HOME! sweeet la! i thought i could at least act off and walk properly so my parents wont know but it was damn obvious, dad helped me to dettol and all! hahahha man ! fuck there is still some small metal shard inside! ahhh! scary! julia was like better take it off now! oh yeah was on the phone with joy been a long time since i last talked to her! heh. never knew she was a vegetarian! anyways the guys have changed the perspectives of her again well anyways i havent talked to her in days, damn sian! sigh! lplease i really really! yes you know! ((: ciaos peeps !

?

2007-10-09T04:47:00.001+08:00

hello again my friends.

things are not going well. well sigh. nvm i shall not talk about it. i shall just let gods will be done. if she is not meant to be then so be it. i'll still like her. fuck it. anyways fuck this shit day! i stepped on a fucking cockroach! and the FKING INTESTINES CAME OUT! FUCK OUTSIDE MY FUCKING ROOM! WTF WHEN DID MY HSE HAVE COCKROACHES! MY HOLY SHIT! RAR!

nerve wrecking i must say

2007-10-07T19:25:00.000+08:00

well! i was wrong again. i thought things were getting better again, well no! its not! instead its getting worst. i mean whats the reason for not replying half way huh?just tell me you are busy i'll fuck off. not just toss your phone in your bag and reply some other people. oh fuck it. yeah dannel said you are tired. well its all about you anyway i cant do anything. oh great now you can say im being selfish sure. thanks. well whats the use of talking to you too, i mean i want to talk to you but what do you give me. nice short msges wooo! how sweet of you. man oh man! FUCK

why the hell IS IT GOING THIS WAY. i wish i didt like her so much too bad. whats done is done. fuck

(:

2007-10-06T07:55:00.001+08:00

aite just came back from another session with the boys! ANYWAY im pretty happy today! =D she gave me a call. 2 calls! but i dont think she can remember though ): but nvm made my day! =D rar! damn tired havent slept for 3 days finally getting some rest today! man i ate macs 3 days in a row! woo! i think im crazy! i think we are crazy! aite thats all! (: ciaos

well hope is just paper thin, she has tonnes of suitors, all much better than me im sure, well guys you cant blame her for having so many suitors and that doesnt mean anything about her even if she goes out with them, so stop saying, i mean i cant change her, she wont change for me. well whatever happens now im not giving up. im not making this another alex. FUCKING BAD COLD! ):

<3 cupcake shush peeps

(:

2007-10-06T00:13:00.000+08:00

yea alright im feeling alright now even though i havent slept for 2 days, and maybe i'll be meeting them later, so that will be the third! =D goody good good. hmmm well today towned! =D hmmm watched clap outside fareast went dinner went walking. heh argh i dontt have the video but heres what happened, went GOODLES to eat, wahahah dared franciso to suck and bite some girls straw for a buck! and he did it=D woots madness.

whats up with all the people today, or maybe elliot was right the aura is back =D everybody keeps looking maybe i look weird. =D but who cares and wow. for the first time she txt me damn happy. but urgh nvm! =D goodenough yo! ((:

i made a mistake, i wish i could change and take back all that i said.
promise me you will be there until the red light will change, i will wait forever.

(:

2007-10-05T07:25:00.000+08:00

Just came back from chilling sessions with the boys, heh 12 plus in a cab with cs looking for contraban ciggies around dairy ffarm fuckin police were all over the place, went beauty world wahahahha ran away from police there for nothing, just for fun and had supper cum breakfast at al azaaarrrr RAR! =D

Anyways i feel so much better, things sorted out. hmmm yeah! but not sure things will go back to normal. she is still giving the sshooort msn msges, well yeah maybe as what dannel said she is tired. argh hmmm nvm. i shall just leave her alone . but im gonna wait. all the way. even though i know its hard for her to fall for me. aite thats all. havent slept for 2 days tired!! ARGH TOWN LATER! WOO IM GONNA DIE!

FUCK

2007-10-04T16:41:00.000+08:00

okay okay i totally screwed my chance la! fuck im over reacting and such and she is give shit replies! argh! fucking sian! sigh the chris guy must be happily talking to her now! wooo! im sure he has the upper hand maybe two hands. argh after what dannel said damn demoralised. sigh gotta prepare for the worse! rar this is what happens when you are a loser at love. sigh its been a long time since i felt like this, so i guess i seriously love verena. fuck hopefully this wont be another alexandra. sigh anyways i should not show so much concern since she doesnt like it. i shall just stfu and wait.

well hahah the mass com girl sent me a msg. i asked her if it was a prank and she was like err im not lame like ________ to do this shit. so yeah asked me out next week. not sure whether im going dont think i will. rar! dont even know her name! lame piece of shit!

ANYWAY I JARED SUM PA KUA JI KUA LAM PA THAT I WILL PERSEVERE UNTIL CHRIS THE FUCK OR MARK THE PUCK GETS HER. MUAHAHAHAH! im not giving up yo! and im gonna change for the better. as long as you are happy! (:

):

2007-10-04T07:40:00.000+08:00

well just got back. im still stressed no idea why. even though dannel told me not to be.. when he told me stuff like he is hot ya da da da ya da. well i got nothing else to say. woo she said balls of fury is stupid. and she went to catch it. shows ahh nvm. thinking toooo much again! i shall just relax. and go with the flow. im gonna just pretend to be super happy.! yes! ALRIGHT not gonna sleep again. heading town later. gotta destress. hopefully some fucker wants to fight with me. got to vent anger RAR! eh okay reupdate i dont think we are going. everyone is like asleep, i cant sleep sigh. i hope i just fall sick and die. anyway i'll die of smoking. i smoke too much when i sad. rar! sooner the better (:

ifihadachance, wouldyouevenletmeknow.

just as what the dudes told me, dont love a girl too much, she'll just play you. but to me its worth it

):

2007-10-03T21:25:00.000+08:00

just came back from a swim with the dudes! well im feeling pretty down now, just because she is going out with some hot dude,car everything ..well she always says she wont do anything.i know she wont i think but i dont know why im like this... well one that isnt jealous isnt in love. but i cant take it. she isnt even replying man. wth. maybe he is just too entertaining. unlike when she is with me she keeps looking at the phone. sigh.. oh okay update 11.48 pm he likes her too! woo good game for me. well he has everything. and she is out so late, some good friend im sure FUCK. anyway i shall just shut up. do nothing. sigh FUCK IM GOING OUT NOW BYE

Well i recieved a call from some unknown girl, saying she is from mass com np lol some d.. course dont know what cant remember well. the dudes told me its a prank so well im just gonna play along. she asked me out. well she didt even tell me her name. so i wanna see who the fuck is playing games. im sick and tired of everything. argh gonna sneak out and meet the dudes.. hopefully we can grab a few drinks i need it badly. aite thats all): its a sad sad day

):

2007-10-03T01:02:00.000+08:00

man oh man.. sigh! argh! urgh! poo! pfft! nothing much to say today. went holland with my mama to bank in $$$ and have lunch. had nydc again! argh the people there kept giving weird looks. yucks sigh! sigh sigh! something isnt right.! you know, just receiving one good morning message or goodnight! from her, can already make my day. doubt that will happen! does it only when she owes me. lol wth man

Bananananananananana!

2007-10-01T23:05:00.000+08:00

well! the past few days had been boring! but today! wooo! went to meet ver! =D hmmm met her at around 3, went to have my hair cut before meeting vers friends f vic dannel and 2 dudes for lunch, NYDC its been a long time since i ate there. after that hmmmm went to walk around look at stuff check out movie times but ended up chilling at the highway, AFTER THAT!!! GRR she didt even let me send her back! what an arse! =D nvm the next time and the next I WILL! MAUHAHAHAHA! =D thats all! i need a job! id do anything i think!

Boo!

2007-09-27T22:43:00.000+08:00

Time after Time. love this song!

Anyways i spent the whole morning and afternoon slacking and stoning! =D well kai wen kenrick fran and elliot came over to my place! went to swim! =D man they were playing stupid games in the pool! throwing sweets and using their toes to get it! IDIOTS! =D had a video of frans tongue lazy to post it! ah okay okay! FRANS TONGUE COMING UP! =D I LOVE CUPCAKE! ((:

MY SOFA! MUAHAHHAA

booo

2007-09-26T22:36:00.000+08:00

Well hello everyone! hmmm went out last night to meet the dudes around 17 of us total! =D went to play lanterns and all. crazy shiats wahahahh they added some weird burning stuff that BOOMS when you pee on it! they were like Jared KEN GO PEE ON IT! =D man lol went to play CATCHING AFTER THAT OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! again! madness didt sleep.

Went home around 4 after a few drinks of ivans bacardi supreme! nice stuff well left my house at 7 to meet ken and cs for breakfast before TRYING OUT NEW WORK! well guess what its shitty had to walk under the hot sun looking for name cards to fill surveys bullshit or what. argh couldt take it! met kw and the others in town later on bout 15 of us! madness was zixiangs bday if im not wrong lol! STUPID ShIT! joey fought with simon over some stupid prank that wasnt caused by him. sigh wth man! BROS BEFORE PHONES! come on!

Well i dont know why elliot still doesnt believe that she is nice, sigh SHe was high so she just held kens hand to go for a walk. argh i dont know man but i dont think she would have done anything with him if he went. i hope... elliot! come on! trust me please! (: sigh i mean like she reminds me alot of alex maybe even more and better. well seriously if i get played or whatever its sure to happen. i hope not, yes elliot i know im digging my own grave but i think its worth it! well i may not even get a chance>SOOOOOO MANY GUYS! argh well i shall just hope for the best! and elli! i need your supportttt!

Yet another wonderful day!

2007-09-26T04:52:00.001+08:00

Well today! (: was yet another seriously nice day! =D went to meet verena banana! =D even though i only met her for a short while! i enjoyed myself! (: hopefully she did! heh! anyways came back home early! then went out to meet THE PEEPS! AARRGHH FUCKING ANGRY LUH! made me walk in cirles twice around the fucking secluded park! ANYWAYS WOW WE HAD like 15 over of us! whee fun! ivan brought some alcohol! wow! ncieto! =D PICTURES OF BANANA!

Look what she did to my hand!

HIGHWAY BLUES

2007-09-23T16:59:00.001+08:00

Well the highway is where we ended up, gahahaha didt have many drinks though! argh well of most of em kept telling me this and that. about ya da ya da. but sigh you guys gotta change that perception, she can change! (: well that night seemed super lonely for me, everyone either had some girl with them or busy on the phone or text, i just stared at my lifeless unvibrating hone): booo! well she is at work now, workmates keeep hitting on her, actually thats almost everywhere i dont know how long i can keep up with that. ):

can you see the star, was the brightest that night.

Sup

2007-09-22T23:35:00.000+08:00

Well guys seems like cupcake is a lil down today, hmmm sigh she got some recollection of some happy memories with some other dude i guess! well hmmm thats something that i cant change, well it makes me sad too. well sigh, bestie ellio is down too! i have no idea why! okay just called him well DUDE TRUST ME ON THIS ONE PLEASE!! she is not what you think she is! argh whats the world coming to. sigh things arent going well again. sigh ): wellwecantjustcoverourfacesandhidefromproblems

im such an idiot

2007-09-21T18:58:00.000+08:00

well didt sleep sleep a wink since just now.. argh my eyes are burning. well guys im sorry about the previous post. i wasnt thinking well my heads in a whirl. i think im too sensitive i still thank kw ken for trying to help me let go but i cant.. well hmmm no more sad shit anymore yo. i cant walk properly i got cuts from the bottom of my feet to my knees hahaha quite cool though. damn my ankles are dead. super painful when i walk. dont think i can do sports for awhile

Well okay this is the good part about yesterday.. hmmm verena friends are nice people all of em. and im sorry dan for you know. well i dont think they will ever wanna hang out ever again cos imma jinx to new dudes. well anyways they are nice (: and im still in love with cupcake not gonna change anymore. i dont care about whatever she is inside flirty or not, i cant give up. she just another alexandra something that i feel deep inside of me.

*cheerios*

it hurts more on the inside, than scabs and stupid wounds.

2007-09-21T07:32:00.001+08:00

im a fucking jinx, met some new dudes and i caused him to fall and bleed and had to go hospital and all, wtf man! i just met them for the first time. wow whee. and why isnt that not bad enough. i still had to see some shit. argh i mean like i thought she was some decent whatever well maybe im sensitive or shit... but kw and the rest felt it too, i mean if i just felt that way im alright with it but if my best bros tell me that they feel uncomfortable im speechless. omfg. argh i have nothing to say man. i really thought she was nice and all. maybe she did give me a hint to give up. she was like well im not gonna let him down. whoever that is. marc or whatever fuck. anyways argh i dont know man. i actually really fell for her. i mean if i wanted to go out and play and fuck around, i mean i would have done it. argh sigh. maybe i'll just stay silent maybe im just thinking too much. well i'll wait i guess for Cup.... sucha loser.
sigh cant sleeeep at all. FUCK
man so this proves that not everytime seeing is believing im sick of finding nice characters it just dont go wow 10 flings plus ya da ya da she had. cant be that whatever man. fuck sigh im blinded once again. and guys i wasnt drunk at all just needed to high myself up a little so i can do stupid things and forget stuff. jumping off the stairs felt good cos for a brief moment i got my mind off this shit, but the moment i land i think about it again. sigh well i dont know if she had someone in mind i mean at least tell me something. not like just say it out last night, i still dont get that part and i need to find out soon. man i have a feelin i will still like her. argh zzzzzzzz. well actually i do. la la laa loser. whateveri

argh anyways elliot congrats keep up the good work man! (:

hmmm

2007-09-20T12:10:00.001+08:00

oh well, today will be just another boring day... and hmm... cupcake is gonna go drinking today again, sigh hope that 'MARC' dude takes care of her and not hmm you know. fuck it. i got no right to be concerned anyway. she's gonna have fun pretty much sure of it. well she kinda gave a hint that i should piss off. yeap i was like wow your expectations are so high, im so far from it, she was like yeah. wtf man this sucks! anyways all the best to your days guys! (: im sure its gonna be better than mine anoymous please own up. i gotta learn how to sweep her off her feet LOL thats all yo! damnit im sick ):

Time for changes yo!

2007-09-19T23:13:00.000+08:00

Hmmm well today went down to beauty world to meet my peeeeps! (: best of the best! and well. sigh i dont know about her though,wtf man! argh she always has nothing much to say ): like ending stuff with oh okay, yeah, ummm gtg, brb, or the rest is just answering my questions, ARGH. im gonna persevere before i fall for alexandra again. which will definitely be proved in vain again. well maybe this one too, she wont give a chance, a hoot, whatever. sigh grrr i'll just wait! for cupcake! (: decided i have! elliot/sinhwa you should consider that too! come on dude! and go with me to the party please! (:

*CHEERS*

(:

2007-09-19T00:31:00.000+08:00

well! (: today was nicest! in a very long time! BUT guys you guys are fun too! (: hmmm no photos can be shown im so sorry, due to some PROBLEM WITH uh hmm! =D but sigh, im such a boring person, must have bored ...... to death!~ ARGHHGHGHGH! anyways yea! i think i found my cupcake =D MMMM Thanks for the weeeeird whisky! argh =D man oh man! i hope there is a next time! anyways cheeers guys(:

*CHEERIOS*

IM HOME!

2007-09-17T07:04:00.000+08:00

Well hello!

Today was a magnificent morning! my bros are back from genting! =D and they brought little fags! =D but anyways heh good to ssee them back! Missed them badly! Hmmm well i got to talk to uh hm on the phone! and wow cute strong voice! her spoken english is good! i have a hard time communicating to chinese speaking peeps! so. mmm yeah for the first time she is starting to like care more, but hopefully that lasts. gaha hmm man im super happy =D but ahh who knows the next minute poof, everything goes just like russie warned. but im not gonna believe that! Well just got back from pool and lan! =D tired! cabbed back $$ just keeps flying! heh yeah!

I love that cupcake =D okie ciaos peeps! (:

hello peepies

2007-09-16T21:55:00.001+08:00

YAY the dudes are back today! coming at 11 woo hoo! hmmm yay i finally getting some hang out time with her =D MUAHAAHAHH! anyways she said i'll have to wait, so i'll wait and wait and wait wait wait wait wait! well something isnt right, sigh i hate it when i get this feeling. but its aite, i can hold. man i think i dont stand a chance, suitors is one thing she has, damnit, well grrr I MISS YOU GUYS! KENRICK KAIWEN! and i hope you guys bought me fags! LOL ((: my work place dudes are crazy! keep saying that i look like some dude which sounds like a fruit wam lee hom! wwth man!!! grr thats all (:

CIAOS!

Sigh

2007-09-15T13:36:00.000+08:00

Man.

well what should i do hur. fuck. i think i really like her. but i just dont wanna be another of her toys. and i dont even know whether she is clean or what. FUCK. and argh. bahaaha. sigh. she isnt flirt and all i can see. but she parties so much. argh i dont know, she doesnt like someone to be like over caring or too attached, yeah but by then you'll lose her right? fuck this shit man. sigh maybe party girls are just too wild for me. but seriously i already like her. and i dont mind getting played. being single all these years really had been sucky, seeing my friends enjoying life and all =D maybe its just not for me yo

Whats that coming over the hill?

2007-09-15T04:23:00.000+08:00

Man oh man!

YUCK FOU. sigh. man oh man this is shitty yo. ): i thought that she was nice. but sigh. i'll still think it that way. hopefully it wont turn out to be what ive heard yo. well. she doesnt know of my blog either so yeah. pfft. man this fucking sucks. argh. MY BROTHERS GIVE ME YOUR ADVISE. it is greatly needed. KAIWEN KENRICK FRAN POHWEI I MISS YOU GUYS even though its only been today since you guys left. FUCK THIS SHIT. i'll just go with my heart. if i get played. fuck that. love is blind people. and ive always been blinded. GRR OH MY SHITTY ASSHOLE!@$$@$@#

just came back from some drinking sessions yo. vodka bacardi WINE WTF! =D and more . bah should have taken more if i knew i was gonna hear this shiat! BOOOOOO FARKING HELL THE DEVIL SUCKS! ): sigh sigh sigh

FLUCK THIS!

2007-09-14T00:55:00.000+08:00

MAN oh man!

i just wasted another chance to go out with muaahah. sigh sigh sigh. it seems also that she does not visit my blog! so yeah all my fellow brothers who frequent this blog you will be updated! (: all my other stalkers can piss off! thank you. grrr work sucks man. always in the way of things. argh. FUCK EVERYTHING.

Her smile just melts me, again and again ten-fold

To the death

2007-09-13T03:28:00.001+08:00

fuck!

Am i not good enough a boy. im doing so good stuff already, unlike others yo. and my fucking parents dont even understand. well fuck it. im gonna lose myself from now onwards, fuck house rules , fuck shit. FUCK IT! Why cant they even allow me to go fucking cycling! wth man grrr at least i got to hang out a lil. wooo customs police all looking for us! FUCK THEM! argh.

when all seems to be lost, hah! she always brightens up my day. sigh i dont think i'll fit her bill. damn. why did i ever have to live man. can some bolt or piano just drop on me as soon as possible. i'll thank the person! (: ciaos

Hell of a time guys. was meant for someone though. thanks anyways!

2007-09-11T05:32:00.000+08:00

GAHA

Well damnit. didt get to meet uh hmm. maybe mr jared is gonna get the kick at the ass again. shoo him off or something. well dang. i dont know. doubt she'll ever like me.

Anyway yall had a blast with my bros just came back and its like morning. gahahaa had great time doing stupid stuff. check out the videos at the btm. boo .. hmm and here are some pics!

EMO SHOT! =D he is defintely staring at my boobs! selling myself cheap! real cheap

WEll the rest will be on friendster! =D thats all folks CHECK OUT THE VIDEOS AT THE BTM!

haw haw haw

2007-09-10T15:52:00.000+08:00

Well todays happy day becomes another sad and boring day.. pifft.. gaha. i knew my life has nothing interesting to live for.. anyways ive got my bros. aite. shall update soon hopefully. geez. off to meet no one.

maybe its you

2007-09-07T14:13:00.000+08:00

Hello!

Well this will be weds update as well as yesterdays!
Heh nothing much on weds though, had soccer in the afternoon with the boys at my place... some of my other friends friend played damn dirty wth man... gave kw a sprained his ankle one wanted to flip cs and lots more.. what fags.. gah. met up with them at around 2am later on wanted to have supper and all... then headed for catching.. Well along the way, we got stopped by a partol car! FK! and one of us had to run off cos he is still like on probation! bah got as detained for qquite a long time.. keep getting threatened to bring us back. dumb police..

Thursday. hmmmm well even though i played catching till like 7am i had only 2 hours of sleep.. sucks! argh and i had to meet all of em at 4 in holland.. booo well after meeting we chilled there till about like 9 plus then headed to velvet dragon.. got in around 11.. hmm. only danced for awhile.. totally sucked with all the twits and gropers.. Well at least in all the mess and in all the crowd i met verena (:

DEAD BEAT GUYS

2007-09-05T03:49:00.001+08:00

Hello

Well guys i just came back from work! and im freaking shagged... bah.. carried plates here and there poured drink ya da ya da ya... fked up shiat.. anyways gonna play catching TONIGHT! wahahhaa pooots! man the customers are sickos yo... kept flirting with me ... eww and they are old.. kept saying i look like wam lim hom some rapper or something what the hell.. LOL and i cant serve noodles for nuts! booo ya! XD

OH AND PLEASE SEND ME YOUR NUMBERS WITH YOUR NAME LOST ALL CONTACTS YO! SORRY AH! =D CIAOS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! MOMO THURS!

puke dukes

2007-08-31T23:05:00.000+08:00

Hello again my friends.. lol ffff kkkkkkkkkkkkkk i dont feel myself today man! neither happy nor that depressed but... hmmm IM ALWAYS HAPPY! so thats weird =D anyway one more has done the ........ sooo we are left with only 2 more! =D soon boys we will see the STARS shining bright up in the skies! -D sigh byes!

finally

2007-08-29T23:22:00.000+08:00

bah guys! finally done... wooo was damn ticklish at some parts though! =D
now we are just left with elliot kw and cs! =D
soon the day that has been long awaited for will be awaited!
its the day where boys become men! =D what nonsense!

BOOO!

2007-08-28T21:08:00.001+08:00

WELL HELLO YO MO MOS!

Nothing interesting happening this few days buT!! IMMA GET A JOB TMR YOO!!! at raffleesss thhhhheeee townnnnnnn clubo yobo! =D thats all! =D

CIAOS

Carpark catching is teh sex!

2007-08-25T07:50:00.001+08:00

HELLO JALEPENOS!

LOL well yesterday was my brothers birthday! wahahahha mmm the kids are full of shit! fked up asses... anyways my bros' came over! waaa played soccer and all swam da da da... around 7 i had to go off for the dinner ! lol came back... elliot and kenrick came over wooo! watched KUNG FU MAJONG! super exciting yo! go catch it!

Hahahaha we left my place around 1 plus to meet the peeps! lol went to the coffee shop to chill for awhile then went to some carpark! lol talked lotsa shit! for about 2 hours before kaiwen came! wahahah was about 3 plus 4..went to play catching at some nearby carpark till 7! wahahaha madness just got home! mamas birthday today! wooo! $$$$$$ GONE! =D thats all! ((:

*CHHEEEERRRSSSS*

Well schools out!

2007-08-22T00:02:00.001+08:00

SUP!

Well school is OFFICIALLY OVER! even though it feels the same whether or not it is...hahah...its time i get a job i guess.. but sigh,,imma fail my exammssss that totally sucks big time.. EVERYTIME during the test im one of the first to get out of the hall! urgh! i wanna be the one sitting inside scoring yo not failing! sigh..played soccer later after the paper.. bunch of uh hmm, lol mmm i dont know weird ppl booked the court, fucking selfish bastards! finally got to play much later! bahahah thats all! SIGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

*cheers*

Well my thoughts go wild!

2007-08-20T14:32:00.003+08:00

Well hello!

Yet another day of waiting, the imense pain that i still have to wait yet another day for my exams, whilst other schools are already done. who am i to complain! hahaha im screwed, didt study...lazy.. typical.

woo im going psycho yo! voices keep telling me move on... but my mind keeps entertaining thoughts of me and her together! heh but its impossible! bahahaha! YES finally exams over tommorow but ive got to face another time of serious lawling by my parents! fkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk! heh yeah gotta find a job too...talk to me if you guys got any good job perks yo! need it.
sigh lost all my contacts

*cheers peeps*

Sigh

2007-08-16T18:48:00.000+08:00

Damn yo! my phone got smashed sigh! all contacts gone and all really sucks! fk! really no mood to do anything.. ive got an exam tmr! argh! sigh things have nvr gone well for me... gah.. my family is good but the other stuff..bah nvr my day! fkit! anyyway gonna head to town tmr celebrate kens bday. so yeah fk

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KENRY!!

2007-08-14T22:12:00.000+08:00

ARGH now i have to retype! booO!

here it goes again! well! tmr is kenricks birthday yO! so my blog is dedicated to him! =D well! hmmmmmm he is a nice guy yo! so girls if you want him tag me for his details he is still SINGLE! =D terms and conditions apply! muahahaha!(free lunch) shucks i dont even have a photo of him!

HMmmm but ladies dont worry! he is guranteed 100% hot cute available! nice guy yo! faithful from what i know! hwaahahah! yeah! his tight shirts give his nipples asthma! just kidding! he is a nice guy yo! =D thats all for today folks! ((:

*CHEERIOS!*

Whats it got to do with you?

2007-08-12T19:32:00.001+08:00

well today is another sucky day..well i have no idea why one of my church friends wants to poke his nose so much into my life.. to the extent of telling my parents? when they already know? what the hell man!fk.. you know it really pisses me off.. i already knew he doesnt like me and wtf he must do this shit to me? fk whats wrong with going clubbing with my peeps? what the hell man and he's gotta tell my parents and add things on like i smoke? well fk that.

sigh enough of whining.. pfft.. went to play soccer later on after church.. well all i know was its damn hot yo. and lotsa injuries today caused by the shit field.. and i accidentally hit sams bro trying to score.. sigh damn guilty he is still pissed off with me.. gah.. nothing is going well in my life

another wasted day in town!

2007-08-10T22:52:00.000+08:00

Hello fellow readers!

today is a day of mourning for my paper.. everything shall be in black! =D hahah anyways yeah im fking screwed! heh i looked at the paper completely speechless, even though im not allowed to talk, i let out a hmmm not too loud fk in class! hah yeah its over!

Well after the paper i skipped the rest of school.. went town with elliot james and gary, lol we spent 17 bucks on billard alone(what a rip-off). ben came not long after along with dennis.. didt do much shit either, bah yeah met eugenia and yeekit at pasta mania.. left not long after! ahh didt even get to catch a movie..Y$^^W&$#&#&.. another wasted town day yo! =D thats all

*Cheers to the paper*(may it burn eternally)

National Holiday!

2007-08-09T21:57:00.000+08:00

HELLO!

Well today was national holiday yo! heh free to slack all the way, went out for breakfast in the morning! wohoho saw two really cute toddlers man! headed home later on..had to 'do' my work! or should i say copy =D but anyways yeah! haha..pfft...headed over to my uncles place in the evening for dinner! then now im back home and i got to drink my 3-week old coke! still tastes as good! *YUMM* kinda still all smiles over yesterday yo! wahahaha havent seen her in ages! ahh yeah thats about all! ahh i have an exam paper tmr! fk! imma screw it big time sigh! expected! im nvr made to study! ahhh hmmm oh my buddha im so screwed! la la la! thats all! =D

*CHEERS ALL*

AHH TOWN!

2007-08-08T22:16:00.001+08:00

Hello!

Whahahahha today was the weirdest day of my life! =D and the best also i guess! heh.. mmm went town was actually planning to watcha movie yo.. but ended walking around! well BUMPED INTO ALEX! ((: man what could get any better man! im still all smiles over that! AHHH! sigh too bad for me. hmmm yeah

Well we walked around heeren looking for some girl mmm one of ma peeps saw! hahah when they found her they actually went to ask! ben OF COURSE! =D they kept running about each time they saw us, haha but finally they stopped, and ended up that one of the friends wanted mine! =D oh my shit! hahah thats alL! gonna head down yo to meet the rest ((: ciaos!

CHECK OUT THE VIDEO! AT THE BTM!

*CHEERS*

IM SICKLY SICK

2007-08-07T17:46:00.000+08:00

HOLA!

Mama mia!IM SICK! wooo fcuk! who in the world gave me a fever and flu! grrr im struggling to breath even now as i try to type... my eyes are burning and it feels so good everytime i close em! wahahah i cant fall asleep! IM LIKE super far off from completing all my tutorials and the deadline is like this friday! oh my shit! lol! guess this is what i get for slacking! sigh!And i didt have spanish today! what a relief, it suddenly feels such a drag to go for the "what used to be" fun class! =D

Hmm maybe all i need is like a lil love to stop me from falling sick! =D maybe! =D thats all!

*CHEERIOS*

FESTIVAL OF PRAISE! =D

2007-08-05T21:05:00.000+08:00

Hello!!!

Well yesterday we went to the festival of praise wahahah.. oh my shit man lotsa lotsa twits this year! wooo! holy cows! hmmm maybe a few chicks here and there but who could ever compare to you know. wahhaha! yeap! played soccer today though my team was super GOOD!wahhaah thats all! mmmm here are some pics!

pranks!

2007-08-03T23:41:00.001+08:00

HELLO!

Nothing exciting in the day! but hmmm at night yes! woo went down to meet elliot! with my cuzzie nato! wahahha! played pranks on this guy who thinks he is very HUMSUM!lol.. so yeah i called in! woo he got most of it but he just said he was disinterested.!

2nd dude who got it was NICK HAY! wahahah called in with a girl saying that she thinks he is hot and all! whahaha he took the bait man! just like always! wahahah yeap!ahahha thats all for today babes and dudes! =D ciaos

*CHEERIOS!*

Finally we watched a movie!

2007-08-02T22:43:00.001+08:00

HELLO!

Well today we finally got to watch a movie! hmmm! went holland v in the morn for breakfast yo! with ellio, nato and mamayo! =D went home and left for town! ahhh we wwatched BLACK SHEEP! cooolio! wahahah dumb shit show! sheep bites mans ear, stretched like forever! wahah... hmmm! man! there is this group of year 2 aasshollesss from RP(thinks they are so good) keeps staring at my peeps! fking kill em soon! =D ANYWAYS MY ADVISE IS TO CATCH BLACK SHEEP! look at the humans mutate man! UBER COOL! =D

Hoho! well all of us finally got to see clement! after such a long time! hahah he almost became another spoiler not wanting to watch alone or any horror flick, said he was in a 'funny show mood' but in the end you know! wahahaah!THATS ALLL =D ((:

OH OH! AND WOW TODAY I HAVE BEEN SEEING LOTSA LOTSA HAIRY MAMAS! OH MY SHIT! IS THAT A TREND I SEE!

*CHEERIOS*

SPOILERS?

2007-08-01T23:12:00.000+08:00

HELLO!!!

HAHAHAH mmmm went town today... wanted to catch alone but due to some unforseen circumstances we could not watch! ARGH THIS SUCKS MAN!! heeh hmmmm something weird is happening too! ahahha hot girls keep appearing on and on... nvr happened before! wahahah who cares anyways aye? ahTHATS ALL! CIAOS!

*CHEERS*

Tired!

2007-07-31T23:06:00.000+08:00

HELLO!

Hello! Friends! =D well today like any other day is BORING... mmm! ahh! i got to skip math class today so i can take my spanish test! Sewwwweeet!... played soccer after that with ben james and jason and other dudes! wo ho ho ho... of to cheers to get a drink, saw some hot chick man! with paul twohill, ben sigh cant stop teasing him! LOL

Off to mambo! wahahah nothing much happened except for the fact that james is a real violent 'pool' player! lol! To break he jumped ball and hit my UH HMM! ASSHOLE! and he almost fought with the cashier man! =D JOKER AYE! =D THATS ALL!

*CHEERS*

PEAR THROWERS!

2007-07-30T23:36:00.000+08:00

HELLO!

Well today like most other days is BORING. hahah nothing funny happened in sch though! Hmmm maybe just one! we were stuffing wires into chensons back pocket! *pfft* dammn fun! wahahahah! saw him digging his ass for it! FEELS GOOD AYE!

Oh and later in the afternoon, err choonseng kenrick ben and james came by to swim, we kinda went to the soccer court to check it out, well guess what when we were walking back from to the pool someone FKING THREW A pear down! Too bad he missed.... Anyways we were pissed so we went up to the kids place! lol 7th floor shithead,...banging frantically on his door they didt dare open, bunch of wimps! their guardian came out from the other side... heh made them open the door! the korean kids was literally trembling.WIMPS!

HMMMM thats about all! elliot just made me go down to open the gate and pick up some uhh hmm! lol =D yeah thats all!

*CHEERS*

OH WELL!

2007-07-29T18:25:00.001+08:00

HELLO!

Sigh this shall be my first emo post! yucks! =D anyways heh! i have no idea whats happening man! grrr! GRRR! wth la hmmm maybe being concerned for someone just doesnt work eh! No one really appreciates someone caring for them anymore! so much for being concerned!! wth to hell with it. BUT I LLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL HER! lol aite thats all lemme show you my shocked face! =D aite thats all!

STEAM BOAT!

2007-07-29T01:01:00.000+08:00

HELLO!

Aite! headed to town today to me ma peeps! lol! mmmmm went to meet julia first in between because! she wanted to show me to CHRYSI!=D wahahahha! we went to paradiz to play pool after that BUT WTH MAN!!!! ITS LIKE 8PUS $$$ per hour rip off ass monkey ass shakers! =D..

Hours later we headed to steam boat! wooo! hahaahhaa nicey nicey! almost fell and i had a galore of MUN TAO! wow freaking nice bread stuff! wahahah mmm! went to bankit to drink later on! AND GUESS WHATT! WE HAD 3 pints and a pack of ciggies for free! thanks to a brilliant plan!!! here are some pics! =DTHATS ALL FOLKS!

CIAOS!

COLD!

2007-07-27T22:22:00.000+08:00

HELLO!

Today was the shitiest coldest day in singapore! oh my shit! is was freaaaking cold! HOHO! argh today was like damn boring! cold, bored and no one was playing cs today! bastarks! LOL SoooooOO!!!

At the pool with elliot nat!

HOhohohoO! look at elliots emo jelapeno hair! lol! MORE RANDOM PICS! Im selling both their numbers! please contact me for more enquiries! whahahah! THATS ALL!

*CHEERS*

GOOD DAY MATE!

2007-07-26T21:41:00.000+08:00

HELLO!!!

Today was a really good day! wahahahh! wheee! went to catch the simpsons with YOU KNOW WHO! after which we started walking around aimlessly! heh then uh hm went off!
Anyway 1 night ago, i went to meet hmmm Choon seng, Chen fong, aloysius, ameer, err hong yun and more lol! they were playing 'walk catching' in some multi story car park! lol cool peeps! anyways we went to bp to get a drink and Choonseng and i had to urgently pee sooooo! we took a spot and PEE-ED wahahahah! then we went to aloys hse to chilL! hahah ended up playing cs till the next morning! mmm THATS ALL! =D

*CHEERS*

BAD HEADACHE!

2007-07-24T21:44:00.000+08:00

HELLO THERE!

wooo! today was lotsa tests day! pratically screwed both! ahh expected of myself! (: anyways during my break today i saw YOU KNOW WHO!? wow made my day! whahaa! (: damn happy after that!

and you know something! hahah my classmate cc was chanting some sutras to summon the devil or something!JOKER! wahahah!booo! then some shit happened after i left starbucks! with my bros! KEN, BEN AND CHOONY! wahahah then i got some shitty head ache!! WAHAHAH COOLIO! thats all! ((:

wooo and i got that pic from cineleisure last friday! hahah cool stuff! and nick the ah beng wanted one too! but his camera SUCKS!

CIAOS

FIRST DAY OF MY BLOG! HOLY COWS!!

2007-07-23T23:01:00.000+08:00

HELLO PEEPIES!

Well, i felt like making a blog today! CAUSE EVERYONE IN MY CLASS HAS ONE! muahahahahah!!! Anyways wooo! I went for dinner with my relatives at Angus Beef House! wooo! FREAKING NICE! My parents anniversary! =D NICEY NICE! HAHAH Wooo! Reminds me of Bryant AGUS!! I MISS HIM!! )): thats all! ((:
CIAOS!

END OF ALL HOPE

sometimes i feel like running away

hello!

CHEEKYS

HOOHOHO!

Hello

aye

well well

boo

hey ho yo

Thanks guys. She locked my heart and threw the key away

how can you expect me just to close my eyes

our clique is going down

suck eggs

well then

sigh

stupid me

LECTURERS! wth man!

finally yo!

sigh

good day

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DEAD AS LOG

the revolving stops in dec. maybe on my birthday. yea so wont be that sad

hai im always doing the wrong things

my fault

HELLO YOYO!

just call out my name i'll be there

i cant do it

(:

fags and booze they'll never let you snooze

HAHAH SENTOSA IS DANGEROUS but FUN! =D

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nerve wrecking i must say

(:

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FUCK

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Bananananananananana!

Boo!

booo

Yet another wonderful day!

HIGHWAY BLUES

Sup

im such an idiot

it hurts more on the inside, than scabs and stupid wounds.

hmmm

Time for changes yo!

(:

IM HOME!

hello peepies

Sigh

Whats that coming over the hill?

FLUCK THIS!

To the death

Hell of a time guys. was meant for someone though. thanks anyways!

haw haw haw

maybe its you

DEAD BEAT GUYS

*puke* dukes

finally

BOOO!

Carpark catching is teh sex!

Well schools out!

Well my thoughts go wild!

Sigh

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KENRY!!

Whats it got to do with you?

another wasted day in town!

National Holiday!

AHH TOWN!

IM SICKLY SICK

FESTIVAL OF PRAISE! =D

pranks!

Finally we watched a movie!

SPOILERS?

puke dukes