Hello

well hello. mmmm played soccer after school. fun. from like 12 to 3. before we like took a break well headed to the convention centre after taking a break and i got to see the donut girl =D hohohoo! wth man im going crazy. well hahah precy tapped me on the back. shocking! well mm mmm mm mm mmmmm played soccer again around 4 plus till like 6 damn tired. almost got into a fight, and wow hell loads of indians playing today. shewwwww!=D vids up!

BEN STRIEKS BACK! argh i cant post the vids next time! relax! =D busy disturbing some poor soul on the bus!

aye

well hello! mmm its been a few days since i last talked to alex. isnt going very well for me. freaking argh. i dont even see her online. pfft. well mmm went to plush last night. holy cows man mmm danced yadayada. then had some problems. well my friend knocked into someone then they all started making hell lot of a noise. went out to settle it. well we were outside with like 30 of our friends. so those dudes came out with 6 then 9 then 10 and so on. wow hell load of dudes. well started shouting here and there. thought a fight was brewing, myrans hands were itchy already. in the end got settled cause all from the same ss. what a joke. well thanks to ex- uh hmm dennis. =D what a joke. well yeah! thanks aster for cutting queue for us wahhaha. (: sexy ladeh. went school freaking tired since monday, school is such a drag! rarr!!

well! hahaahaaa i think im finally getting over her i hope. Drinking really solves problems, i was so high that i called her, then she like texted back. so we talked. and well the truth is out. to her im nothing more than a line in her book. so well. i'll just have to get over it. heh! well last night had a hell of a time. snuck out. went drinkin with friends! coolio! shared a bottle of vodka with ken finished like 3/4. holy cows man. i was really damn high. maybe cos i was sad, maybe not. well we were around orchard towers! sooo guess what! we went in and started playing a fool hahah yucks! when i wanted to go to the next floor 4 of em were like giving the lip sounds! ARGH YUCKS! well frannies lolli got taken away by one of them! started licking it in front of him. then touched darryl! WTH! DARRYL WAS LIKE: GOOO AWAY!! __ =D fierce!heh i guess nat is right! there are many girls out there but hopefully i can find one that will mean as much or more than alex to me! ahahha some REAL GIRLS WERE GIVING US THE EYES! =D hohoho.well after that took a cab home to get my phone! forgot to take it with me. heh then puked alot! AND I MEAN ALOT! before i could walk a bit better! hahah but it was fun! went out with $50 came back with $15 )): thats all! (:

well well

I figured that being like this aint the way. so im deciding not to quit fagging, i actually stopped for quite awhile thanks to her. well since things have gone this way i cant. well no more emo posts sucks big time. life totally sucks anyways. well heres the happier things that happen the past few days that i didt put in.

well had shots and nuts! pretty nice, was quite high after that. all around campus couldt stop laughing!


well after that had a ride to cs and kais' basketball tourney woo! fun! watch this vid! to think we shouted at a bunch of scouts and had to stop right at the next one! woo!










KEN AND CS BUSY SHOUTING AT STUPID BUS WAITERS!

boo

well today was yet another horrible day, didt go class, no mood for school anymore. sigh. well went to play soccer instead. really no mood to do anything. sigh well my temper is getting from bad to worse. i dont know why. sigh i keep thinking of her im going crazy. aye. Almost got in to a fight with another group well, good thing they didt say they had a problem, would have freaking whacked them. really no mood for games anymore. im not as fun as i used to be. say bye to the joker jared. it fdoesnt work. unless you are from a boys school. pfft. shitheads stuck up. not all. but mostly. the once i know are the nice ones. oh well. i guess eka is nice too

hey ho yo

well, today had a chat session with my cousin nat. well she told me a lot of things that made sense. well i guess maybe she just doesnt like mixed school boys or dumb people like me. so well, i will carry on trying to forget her. which is utterly impossible i can guarantee. nothing can ever cahnge how much i love her, you know how much it pains me to see the photos she has with eka, i know im crazy but i have been checking out his profile, so close and she said it was a nono, *joke* well since she prefers AcsI dudes, rich, hot whatever you name they have it. so what can i do right. well i got nothing to say. My usual image i had of her is shattered, now its bad. well wooo, maybe she also thinks im some gangster just because i get angry fast.well im not i dont even get into fights often unless i really have to. well who cares acsi to her is everything, she dont give shit about aes boy. im just a toy. fcuk well this few nights mmm 2 to be exact i cant sleep i keep tossing and turning keep thinking about her. wth man! i hate this feeling the thought of her being around you know whos! well who am i to care for her right. she is enjoying herself, so what can i do.

THANKS Nat
Julia
AND ALL ELSE! (:

i know im being played around in the mind, well im sorry i dont mind. 7 years dont matter a thing. just like tim said LOL joker bitches they come they go.. but she isnt. she is one in a million i tell ya ): well she only likes all boys school ones so all the best to them.

OH yeah, thanks alexandra for the point , i get it now, hmmm since you always stop replying half way. well she told me eka was a bigg nono right, hmmm but she replies him. on the other hand she doesnt reply me which means im a even bigger nono. wow! thanks.

I JUST REALISED HOW BIG A LOSER I AM!

Thanks guys. She locked my heart and threw the key away

well, this 2 days of school everywhere most of the places i go, everyone is like Hey jared whats wrong? lol i didt know they could tell that somethings wrong. well anyways thanks for the concern guys but i cant help it. i cant control myself anymore. like totally lost myself. sigh well havent talked to her like for one day, you know the temptation of sending a txt to her. even if i do all i get is cold txts back, i mean now isnt as bad as last time but in the end she'll cut off like after 5 txts and say that she is busy or something. well cant be helped if she doesnt care. well i learnt a very valuable lesson, dont trust what others say and also never ever fall in love with someone. just wait for them to tell you they love you first, the pain is so fking shit. i totally screwed myself just now when i asked her out for a movie and suddenly said its alright. well i kinda got a lil pissed cos she was like no prob after i asked her out cos i said thanks. yeah maybe its just self pity or something or maybe shes doing me a favour or something i dont know. well im gonna box up myself till i forget. well thats gonna be a long time. i like totally am head over heels for her. no idea why. im just being freaking PARANOID JEALOUS YA DA YA DA cos of that ffreakhead eka.. sigh i dont know. love totally sucks eggs. well she was missing the whole afternoon cycling with god knows who. well its not for me to say anything. woo ahh hope someone brings alcohol to school tmr. sigh freaking sucked on my 7 years, where did i go wrong


my love for her will never fade. well she doesnt give a shit

how can you expect me just to close my eyes

well just as i thought things were looking up. i went back to look at the photos well its totally different. she was enjoying it i could see. well. well. well. well. i got nothing to say. maybe im just a shiat dumb shat. well forgetting someone you have liked for so long is too darn difficult. sorry to everyone else that i have given a false impression,. im was trying to forget her. well i cant.

our clique is going down

Well we are all getting shit one by one yo. first was elliot! sigh lost his phone ya da ya da, that girl. then it was choonseng his ciggs were crushed by police. then me fined $500 and may get a case, dont think i will and that girl too sigh. then now ALVIN holy shit man he just lost his wallet costs like $140 and had 70 bucks inside plus all his cards! what the hell man ): anyways i hope no one else gets it. sigh why us man. well i hope nothing goes wrong anymore.

pfft. well today skipped the whole day. went to play soccer , headed to canteen saw lance, josh and sheida =D i still dont know how to spell it! die! andddddd SARAH XD fierce! woo they signed up for gl camp! sweeet! ((: man oh man. take a look at the photo this afternoon when we went beauty world for lunch ken took some drug and foamed up =D WELL IF YOU DIDT KNOW GO WATCH THE VIDS AT THE BOTTOM IF YOU ARE BORED cIAOS!

suck eggs

man my dad hid the keys out. argh! im stuck at home forever! sigh! life sucks man! well i think cupcake has someone else already ): well sigh. everything isnt going well now.