Thanks guys. She locked my heart and threw the key away

well, this 2 days of school everywhere most of the places i go, everyone is like Hey jared whats wrong? lol i didt know they could tell that somethings wrong. well anyways thanks for the concern guys but i cant help it. i cant control myself anymore. like totally lost myself. sigh well havent talked to her like for one day, you know the temptation of sending a txt to her. even if i do all i get is cold txts back, i mean now isnt as bad as last time but in the end she'll cut off like after 5 txts and say that she is busy or something. well cant be helped if she doesnt care. well i learnt a very valuable lesson, dont trust what others say and also never ever fall in love with someone. just wait for them to tell you they love you first, the pain is so fking shit. i totally screwed myself just now when i asked her out for a movie and suddenly said its alright. well i kinda got a lil pissed cos she was like no prob after i asked her out cos i said thanks. yeah maybe its just self pity or something or maybe shes doing me a favour or something i dont know. well im gonna box up myself till i forget. well thats gonna be a long time. i like totally am head over heels for her. no idea why. im just being freaking PARANOID JEALOUS YA DA YA DA cos of that ffreakhead eka.. sigh i dont know. love totally sucks eggs. well she was missing the whole afternoon cycling with god knows who. well its not for me to say anything. woo ahh hope someone brings alcohol to school tmr. sigh freaking sucked on my 7 years, where did i go wrong


my love for her will never fade. well she doesnt give a shit