how can you expect me just to close my eyes

well just as i thought things were looking up. i went back to look at the photos well its totally different. she was enjoying it i could see. well. well. well. well. i got nothing to say. maybe im just a shiat dumb shat. well forgetting someone you have liked for so long is too darn difficult. sorry to everyone else that i have given a false impression,. im was trying to forget her. well i cant.