well then

hahahahah helllllo!!!

well! this early morning was the worse day of my life. im never gonna buy contra ever again! shiat man! details classified due to some viewers. THE MARDA SUCKS! lol. hmm hmm well i havent talk to ver for like 2 days. dont know man. its super diff when i talk to her. she is like silent. i can talk to others be it a guy or a girl. got lotsa shit to say. maybe she doesnt wanna talk to me. heh. sigh whatever,, woooo wooo woooo! life is screwed up. hmm mhm mhmm hmm mhmmm mhmm mhmmmm! ciaos!

sigh

man this is the worse year i have ever had. keep doing the wrong things, i think im falling for the wrong person. getting false hope i guess. and i just got a case. sigh fucked up, my life is screwing up bit by bit. soon i think i'll be dead. that'll be great though. sigh ciaos

stupid me

argh, im damn dumb luh i shouldt have put the money back into her wallet, had to go back and borrow cash! ARGH SO embarrasing ): she didt even reply my msg die die): i doubt she can even remember anything so hai! nvm ciaos church and soccer time

LECTURERS! wth man!

woooo today! another boring day. mmm mmm mmmm alright for math class was like wth man! the teacher locked us in! and one of ma lecture mates was like wanting to get out but the teachers was like no way am i opening the door! then i asked him can i go to the loo! he was like is it neccesary. then i was like nature calls not neccesary.? your mother die dont you need to go to the funeral! LOL wooo sucker! mmm mm mm then went to play soccer! wont every match! wahhahah WOOOOO oHOOOOO! aite thats all! (: oh oh saw precy in sch! lol mmm mm mmm mm yeap yeap! lunch tmr with julia yo!



look what alvin and cs were doing in the bus from town!

finally yo!

hello! peepies! today was major slack day! not gonna talk about it. went library with STEP MODEL BENSON laid back and chilled. watched vids , listened to backmasked songs only one gave me a fuck scare! lol BEATLEJUICE lol. hmm hmmm went to play soccer after that. then went home. headed out for dinner. TONYROMAS, some photos of the food we ate!

DADS RIBS COMBO! AND MY MAIDS HALF BBQ CHICKEN (other half eaten)

BROTHERS CHICKEN THING! now you know why he is fat!

thats mine! a bit messed up after eating!

NEXT DESERT!

SKILLET COOKIE AND FEEL THE APPLE CRUMBLE!!!

sigh

sometimes i really dont understand why im holding on to my fucking life. i know cos its a sin and i dont want my parents to be sad, but seriously. i feel like ending once and for all. really cant take it. why cant my parents accomodate, why cant they listen. havent i dont enough. i seriously hate my life. but then again i cant do it. parents. sigh

good day

well hello! hmmm aite heres the deal, after i left yesterday headed to town to meet the rest. cant remember much about what we did in town, oh yeah met julia wow there is this girl who is damn hot heh the guy also! wow! after that we headed to dxo, yeap. hmm yeah went there got ticks for everyone then guest listed in. nmmmm well i saw vers friends mel, lol she was like give up ver, dont waste your time waiting, and saw ian too, hahhaha damn tall. hot dude sure to get any chick he wants. yeap told me almost the same stuff too. well yeah and woots made a new friend, other than the lians that kept banging on me heh. RACH lol i finally recalled your name. ((: went out around esplanade to chill with her and friend.

well hmmm after the event, waited with her to get my bag, the rest of the peeps all waiting outside. woots cant believe over 30 friends went yesterday. 17 plus plus of which i know the rest links. yea lol. hmmm yeap after that walked a long long way to get drinks for the guys and rach then went back chill took bus to my church lOL! yeah damn joke. kw cs and ken were doing stupid things in the classroom. assholes. heh well. sigh my parents still not talking to me. well too bad for me (:

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hello and goodbye my friends. im leaving home, cant take my dad anymore fucked up. cant even let me stay over! wth how old am i already, fuck. well this is the last straw peeps. love life sucks, everything sucks! and ian if you want to beat me up get it over and done with, cos i'm defintely gonna retaliate, and you'll be suprise to know that i wont end up with her. so faster dude., im bored

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WTH MAN, mich is ignoring me ): rar. sad ): well well today school was boring as usual. hmmm hmmm didt get to see precy though =D anyways my dads a dick! rar cant even let me stay over kw hse just for one night! come on man! its not like i'll go get a one night stand or something. wth! fark! hmmm well mmmm school sucks. and whatever

okay ciaos

DEAD AS LOG

lol! woo! hmm hmm kai alvin cs and ken came over to my place last night, to 'watch' soccer but we were devising a sinister plan to get me out of the house so i can meet the rest at beauty world! =D well i got out! but made a lot of noise, its a good thing my parents didt hear. woo went there played till like morning then went straight to school.! argh my class has this psycho dude, suddenly started to come out with stupid voting shits, and all of the sudden he said who is not a virgin, and all voted me! WTH WHAT NONSENSE! RAR! stupid engineering idiots! rar all the same! nvr change! grrr, well after that went town with ken to get jeans then back to school to chill! wow saw PRECY again, SSSSSS!. lol anyways julia said i should open up and since nothing is happening and i dont know what she wants maybe i should! well soo many chicks giving eye contact but i just dont know what to do! lol

wow, saw ian today kept staring at me his friend too! lol didt know that ken told me! said that guy keep staring at you. whatt for man. if you got something to say then say it. or maybe he wants to beat me up too just like the rest he did in. lol he may be able to knock me out. but he still has to face my friends. =D so woo! aite thats all ciaos!

the revolving stops in dec. maybe on my birthday. yea so wont be that sad

lol yeap. woots yeap. hmm yeap. yes yeap. well yeap. im like finished already. hahah wow damn fast finished off by this dude Christian(http://profiles.friendster.com/3347900 ) go check him out. totally crushes me to nothing. hmm well dont know why he viewed me, im no threat. well she just went out again, didt bother to ask who, either vic dan, but most prob him so well. im sure to lose. ask her out not free. ask her this not free. well what can i do now? sit down and shut up yeah i guess so.

well today yet another boring day. really no mood for sch. and hahah saw garret today canteen. classmates checkin out this girl. hot i must say. sigh. went for susu with him. then susued again and again and again. im sure to die soon. gonna enjoy it (: well thats all i guess. ciaos

hai im always doing the wrong things

hmm my life totally sucks. sometimes i wish i could just run and hide from the problems that i cause. bah seems like i keep causing more and more everyday. if i could just like disappear for a day, i could ease many miseries. sigh and i really think i have noo more chance. how can i win over a super hot dude., short hair, got a car. goes out with alot. and smart and whatever rar. fuck it. lifes like that. but i aint givin up.even though i know i should.

well schools a drag and i cant be bothered to talk about it. sigh really no mood for school anymore. hai. sucks eggs. sigh sigh sigh. saw sherlyn today wow lost a lot of weight, =D nothing can beat cupcake.

my fault

well okay i finally woke up after dont know how many sticks. well i guess because of what i wanted i didt think of her. but still i hate it i mean. she can txt me all of the sudden and all of the sudden dont reply. yeah i like that. and hahaha nvm about the rest. im not gonna think of it. anyways im sorry for writing all those shits. but well i dont think you'll be talking to me anymore. and i dont think im gonna txt you either, i'll try my best not to. dont want to get empty boring replies or no replies. aite thats all (: lol elliot quotes: turn you into a monster. thats what he told me. whose the he? guess?! HOPEFULLY SHE'LL TALK TO ME. SIGH

HELLO YOYO!

OKAY MY MISTAKE IN THE LAST POST! SHE IS DECENT! BUT IM JUST SUPER SENSITIVE! WELL im just not gonna care! (: and i'll just concentrate on GUITAR, MY DUDES, a bit of study, SOCCER GUITAR, MY DUDES, a bit of study, SOCCER GUITAR, MY DUDES, a bit of study, SOCCER GUITAR, MY DUDES, a bit of study, SOCCER GUITAR, MY DUDES, a bit of study, SOCCER GUITAR, MY DUDES, a bit of study, SOCCER GUITAR, MY DUDES, a bit of study, SOCCER GUITAR, MY DUDES, a bit of study, SOCCER.

well well seriously
im too sensitive =D which makes my friends sensitive and affects everyone! so lets all just relax and fag! well rowena said she is gonna be my personal escort to school! wooo! ahahaha THE GUYS SHALL STARE! =D lol hmm hmm nvm ! LET THE BODIES HIT THE FLOOR! im really losing my mind over her. wth nvr happened before. i'd rather she not tell me anything! hahah too busy to meet him!!? wow 2 movies straight nice. =D oh oh yes too sensitive whatever mate

just call out my name i'll be there

this is getting suckier and suckier everyday, well i asked her out like last week for a movie haahah she said she is working well she went to watch one last night, 2 movies well till damn late in the morning with! i dont know who the fuck he is. well i have no right to care. and well i think she txts me just because she is bored, well maybe christian is busy in school or guy B has soccer training so to pass time maybe i'll msg the idiot. fuck, suka suka msg me suka suka dont reply.i'd rather her dont msg me at all.even though it makes me really happy sigh wow! i mean if she is gonna be working or go out with some dude at least just say bye la wtf just dont reply nice of her.lol and i thought she was a really decent girl last time. ho ho ho. thanks alot. hahaha maybe im not even worthy to call myself a substitute in front of her. maybe just a stalker yeah a stalker. well i dont know why the fuck i like her man. im wondering now. i mean lol i got so many choices. my fucked up heart always chooses the wrong ones well. getting used to it 2nd girl now. woo well i just love her too much hopefully something will come to. sigh hmm guess im just not worthy enough to go out with her anymore im like too lousy compared to the other guys. hahah well i dont care anymore man.you can blame me for being sensitive being a fucked up jerk or whatever. (: or too demanding or clingy! hahah you are right! elliot you are right too! (:

well today spent the afternoon with the family went shopping at esprit bought a few shirts, caught ballsoffury lol funny show maggie q is frreaking hot. her ass is perfect =D lol well guys dont get that lucky in singapore. sigh. oh and balls of fury was one of the shows i wanted to watch with her. but then again with someone else! well i dont know why i dont know what she is doing. so i shall just fucking try to relax and fag my life away (: cheers dudes

cupcake (: its good that she didt find this blog elliot chill (:
i wanted to so much to bring her food, she just shoos me off all the time. well maybe the hotter guys brought her stuff already. christian. fucking starting to hate that name

i cant do it

well! hmm was able to txt her(cupcake) today, for awhile to be exact before she stopped replying again! ): better than nothing though, anyways i think its gonna be quite hard to make her like me, so i've to try my best to make her think that i gave up. so when she gets together with christian or whoever she wont feel guilty at all. so many guys for her so many choices. im nothing but a line. boring day again today. sigh well some weird person added me on msn saying she is my stalker some sijia person. knew alot about me. lol but when i asked her who she is she kept saying not now not yet. damn irritating. rar! always the wrong people coming to me. not the one that i want ):

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well well! (: for the first time! she talked to me! woo! hahahah anyways yeah just came back from beauty world! went for a early morning swim! and now im sitting here! hahah my phone was like unvibrated for days, only by guys! =D well only joy txted me and called. if only that were cupcake! hahah fat hope! okay aite! thats all! tv time! no sleep again! feels ARGH

fags and booze they'll never let you snooze

hello.well today woke up went to town. aite hmmm went to buy tickets at cine. for resident evil.. well after getting the tickets, walked off with kenrick first to go grab a bite. and guess what, i saw cupcake (: sigh. my heart raced and its like the whole world stopped moving.. hahah to her its like nothing. well after that i have no idea why i felt so down.. didt have the mood to do anything. rar. went to hunt for jobs after that for the boys. well someone wrote at the religion section this. CHATOLIC! =D lol damn cute catholic?!?!?

haa the night before talked to Alexandra like after how many months yo. well seems like she has been fine. and its been a long time since ive seen her. well yeah she told me she may not be going US so wow. yeah lose something, something else may come back but well i'd very much still prefer to stay cupcake but hahahahahh she doesnt give a hoot. she doesnt even talk to me. well it would be a bloody miracle if she does. how much i yearn to send her a message or msn her but haha it'll all be in vain 3-4 short texts and no reply. how enjoyable right. anyways when im sad i always do the same things. i'll be quiet thats all. but i got my bros with me and the $11.20 friends who will always be there. lol argh im going broke on them

hmmm ALSO THE that night had to call joy and sing her to sleep. ended up telling bedtime stories to her and her younger sister. chat chat chat till like 3 am plus plus plus. i think i sounded real bad! well thats all. ARGH I CANT SEE MY OWN BLOG ITS LIKE CLASSIFIED UNDER ADULT NO IDEA WHY! SINGNET SHIT! ): anyways i have this slight chance of going back indonesia. parents say i have to go! like 100% during the break. hope its not permanant yo ):

cupcake<3

HAHAH SENTOSA IS DANGEROUS but FUN! =D

Beautiful beach of sentosa! =D offers good and nice injuries! (:

Alright alright! heh! we went timah again the last night went home around 4am, headed home changed did whatever and WAS SUPPOSED TO MEET AT 11 at habourfront but due to some uh hmms they were late! ARGHGHG. anyways after we got there went to siloso if im not wrong. rarrr! lol ken was super high before that! damn funny. settled down started playing basketball and soccer with some acjc ppeeoople! wow one of the girls paint damn nice! anywayss yes THATS WHEN IT ALL STARTED , we wanted to sit and have a halftime break then! i took the ball put it on this!

i took the plunge tried to kick the ball well guess what! i missed the ball and hit the metal lamp shit!! woo! the whole thing broke as you can see, i even brought the thing home as a souvenir rar! hurts like mad! ended up with a cut and blueblacks cant walk like a normal person anymore! RAR THE BLUEBLACKS ARE KILLING ME. shits well i still swam with the wound didt wanna spoil the mood! but it hurt damn badly! argh but i was worth it.all the guys were like flashing their dicks after we swam over to the island. then we paraded in boxers got the crowd looking yo. LOL

Doesnt loook as bad here but my whole foot is like all swollen! =D wahahaha cool stuff! first time i had so many photos! well went to wash it afterwards like an idiot is was an outdoor sink!

okay okay! well after that we played baseball with a wooden plank and tennis ball! all found there! wahahah lucky days yo! =D anyways. after that went to have dinner than headed to the twin towers yo! =D played catching then headed to the beaach again!ended up playing frizzzzyby! =D then a bunch of girls joined in! lol all of the boys with like wow so sexy =D ARSE lol(: anyways after that washed up! headed to vivo. left first with roger and alvin, crossed to road to grab a cab taxi stand was tooooo long yo! couldt wait. guess what waited and waited couldt get shit. so well i saw this cab driver who had a flat tire went to help and he agreeed to send us! WOO HURRAY TO NO MORE WAITING . look at me hard at work! lol to go home! woo the rest helped too! alvin took tires. roger and i busy screwin the car! LOL

after that WAS HOME SWEEEET HOME! sweeet la! i thought i could at least act off and walk properly so my parents wont know but it was damn obvious, dad helped me to dettol and all! hahahha man ! fuck there is still some small metal shard inside! ahhh! scary! julia was like better take it off now! oh yeah was on the phone with joy been a long time since i last talked to her! heh. never knew she was a vegetarian! anyways the guys have changed the perspectives of her again well anyways i havent talked to her in days, damn sian! sigh! lplease i really really! yes you know! ((: ciaos peeps !

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hello again my friends.

things are not going well. well sigh. nvm i shall not talk about it. i shall just let gods will be done. if she is not meant to be then so be it. i'll still like her. fuck it. anyways fuck this shit day! i stepped on a fucking cockroach! and the FKING INTESTINES CAME OUT! FUCK OUTSIDE MY FUCKING ROOM! WTF WHEN DID MY HSE HAVE COCKROACHES! MY HOLY SHIT! RAR!

nerve wrecking i must say

well! i was wrong again. i thought things were getting better again, well no! its not! instead its getting worst. i mean whats the reason for not replying half way huh?just tell me you are busy i'll fuck off. not just toss your phone in your bag and reply some other people. oh fuck it. yeah dannel said you are tired. well its all about you anyway i cant do anything. oh great now you can say im being selfish sure. thanks. well whats the use of talking to you too, i mean i want to talk to you but what do you give me. nice short msges wooo! how sweet of you. man oh man! FUCK

why the hell IS IT GOING THIS WAY. i wish i didt like her so much too bad. whats done is done. fuck

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aite just came back from another session with the boys! ANYWAY im pretty happy today! =D she gave me a call. 2 calls! but i dont think she can remember though ): but nvm made my day! =D rar! damn tired havent slept for 3 days finally getting some rest today! man i ate macs 3 days in a row! woo! i think im crazy! i think we are crazy! aite thats all! (: ciaos

well hope is just paper thin, she has tonnes of suitors, all much better than me im sure, well guys you cant blame her for having so many suitors and that doesnt mean anything about her even if she goes out with them, so stop saying, i mean i cant change her, she wont change for me. well whatever happens now im not giving up. im not making this another alex. FUCKING BAD COLD! ):

<3 cupcake shush peeps

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yea alright im feeling alright now even though i havent slept for 2 days, and maybe i'll be meeting them later, so that will be the third! =D goody good good. hmmm well today towned! =D hmmm watched clap outside fareast went dinner went walking. heh argh i dontt have the video but heres what happened, went GOODLES to eat, wahahah dared franciso to suck and bite some girls straw for a buck! and he did it=D woots madness.

whats up with all the people today, or maybe elliot was right the aura is back =D everybody keeps looking maybe i look weird. =D but who cares and wow. for the first time she txt me damn happy. but urgh nvm! =D goodenough yo! ((:

i made a mistake, i wish i could change and take back all that i said.
promise me you will be there until the red light will change, i will wait forever.

(:

Just came back from chilling sessions with the boys, heh 12 plus in a cab with cs looking for contraban ciggies around dairy ffarm fuckin police were all over the place, went beauty world wahahahha ran away from police there for nothing, just for fun and had supper cum breakfast at al azaaarrrr RAR! =D

Anyways i feel so much better, things sorted out. hmmm yeah! but not sure things will go back to normal. she is still giving the sshooort msn msges, well yeah maybe as what dannel said she is tired. argh hmmm nvm. i shall just leave her alone . but im gonna wait. all the way. even though i know its hard for her to fall for me. aite thats all. havent slept for 2 days tired!! ARGH TOWN LATER! WOO IM GONNA DIE!

FUCK

okay okay i totally screwed my chance la! fuck im over reacting and such and she is give shit replies! argh! fucking sian! sigh the chris guy must be happily talking to her now! wooo! im sure he has the upper hand maybe two hands. argh after what dannel said damn demoralised. sigh gotta prepare for the worse! rar this is what happens when you are a loser at love. sigh its been a long time since i felt like this, so i guess i seriously love verena. fuck hopefully this wont be another alexandra. sigh anyways i should not show so much concern since she doesnt like it. i shall just stfu and wait.

well hahah the mass com girl sent me a msg. i asked her if it was a prank and she was like err im not lame like ________ to do this shit. so yeah asked me out next week. not sure whether im going dont think i will. rar! dont even know her name! lame piece of shit!

ANYWAY I JARED SUM PA KUA JI KUA LAM PA THAT I WILL PERSEVERE UNTIL CHRIS THE FUCK OR MARK THE PUCK GETS HER. MUAHAHAHAH! im not giving up yo! and im gonna change for the better. as long as you are happy! (:

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well just got back. im still stressed no idea why. even though dannel told me not to be.. when he told me stuff like he is hot ya da da da ya da. well i got nothing else to say. woo she said balls of fury is stupid. and she went to catch it. shows ahh nvm. thinking toooo much again! i shall just relax. and go with the flow. im gonna just pretend to be super happy.! yes! ALRIGHT not gonna sleep again. heading town later. gotta destress. hopefully some fucker wants to fight with me. got to vent anger RAR! eh okay reupdate i dont think we are going. everyone is like asleep, i cant sleep sigh. i hope i just fall sick and die. anyway i'll die of smoking. i smoke too much when i sad. rar! sooner the better (:

ifihadachance, wouldyouevenletmeknow.

just as what the dudes told me, dont love a girl too much, she'll just play you. but to me its worth it

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just came back from a swim with the dudes! well im feeling pretty down now, just because she is going out with some hot dude,car everything ..well she always says she wont do anything.i know she wont i think but i dont know why im like this... well one that isnt jealous isnt in love. but i cant take it. she isnt even replying man. wth. maybe he is just too entertaining. unlike when she is with me she keeps looking at the phone. sigh.. oh okay update 11.48 pm he likes her too! woo good game for me. well he has everything. and she is out so late, some good friend im sure FUCK. anyway i shall just shut up. do nothing. sigh FUCK IM GOING OUT NOW BYE

Well i recieved a call from some unknown girl, saying she is from mass com np lol some d.. course dont know what cant remember well. the dudes told me its a prank so well im just gonna play along. she asked me out. well she didt even tell me her name. so i wanna see who the fuck is playing games. im sick and tired of everything. argh gonna sneak out and meet the dudes.. hopefully we can grab a few drinks i need it badly. aite thats all): its a sad sad day

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man oh man.. sigh! argh! urgh! poo! pfft! nothing much to say today. went holland with my mama to bank in $$$ and have lunch. had nydc again! argh the people there kept giving weird looks. yucks sigh! sigh sigh! something isnt right.! you know, just receiving one good morning message or goodnight! from her, can already make my day. doubt that will happen! does it only when she owes me. lol wth man

Bananananananananana!

well! the past few days had been boring! but today! wooo! went to meet ver! =D hmmm met her at around 3, went to have my hair cut before meeting vers friends f vic dannel and 2 dudes for lunch, NYDC its been a long time since i ate there. after that hmmmm went to walk around look at stuff check out movie times but ended up chilling at the highway, AFTER THAT!!! GRR she didt even let me send her back! what an arse! =D nvm the next time and the next I WILL! MAUHAHAHAHA! =D thats all! i need a job! id do anything i think!